Mother's day weekend sure makes you think. Every year it hits me like a slap in the face. I am a MOTHER! It was the only thing I ever wanted to do as a child and the only thing I prepared for as a young adult. Years as a nanny loving somebody else's children wishing I had my own and then coming to the realization that I may have none.
What a journey! What a wonderful journey!
Had it not been so hard and so long I don't think I could have appreciated the announcement of twins! The weeks in antipartum on bedrest before they were born or the emergency c-section that saved my son's life. The long weeks in the NICU that meant so much to me and taught me years of experience in 16 days. I don't think I would have known to cherish every second and find every joy had the journey not been so hard.
Now here we are with three beautiful children! This year I am a mom of three! Three amazing, funny, crazy, caring, energetic, creative, thoughtful, wondering, curious babies! I spend my days playing with the toys that clutter our house and being covered in the food that is the wallpaper of my kitchen. Parks are my new "hot spot" and happy hour is a little more like nap time. My favorite outfits are ones that can handle a dose of paint or marker and my best hair style is one where I can always detangle the little hands that have styled me to be "pretty". My hip and trendy hand bag carries size 3 and 4 diapers instead of lipstick and taxi numbers. Evenings are spent checking on our cargo of babies instead of flying by the seat of our pants to our next weekend get-a-way.
It's all I ever wanted. All I ever dreamed of and more than I ever dared to ask for. I stay home with my babies and love on them, teach them, and do the very best I can for them. Our family is abundantly happy and no matter the economy and our wallets, we are rich as the King of Prussia! Mother's day reminds me of the most amazing journey. . . . for which I am forever grateful!